Saturday, September 1, 2007:
The reception is at the Swensons’. I fell a deep need to avoid everyone, and mostly succeed. What a change from pleasant pasts. The world breaks everyone. The youngsters dance. I see Caitlin’s facility. Drew and Sarah are a careful pair. Is that my doing? Is it bad, necessarily? Spencer stays out of it. Matt and Claire get into it. What is that step, Mathieson? I enjoy how the older girls teach Claire to do provocative movements with her hips. Mark and I fall to talking. A dad has enthusiasms, he says, and things he’d love to give and share. No one’s interested. And this is one of the world’s great men. What chance do I have?